the fact.....

I doesnt mean that I don't believe you, but sometimes my confidence will be shaken. Maybe you still cannot fully give me confidence to it.hmm,,,I was learning trust, forgiveness. So I try not to rely on you, do not bother you. Because I do not want you to feel disgust. Because I know my recent behavior is too over. You need more space. You need privacy. I'm sorry. . . Do you remember today? I did not forget today. Promised to give you a surprise every ten days. I did. You probably do not like, but I hope that you will cherish :)

Last 30 days

Last 30 days. . . Wondering what to give your heart surprise. Do not want to make you feel very disappointed. I want you to have an unprecedented feeling. In fact, my head is full of different ideas. hehehehe

111110...THE 40DAYS

SUPRISEEEEEE~~~~ I knw u can't wait to see it ya!! hohoho ^0^ hmm,,okay, da 1st one is----tikus!!! muahaha. ( this tikus will replace Ah Boo ) guess what is da function? not just for decoration....deng deng deng!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its a money saving coins box =) I want u save up the money for ur own future.I dun want u waste the money to buy thing for me okay. I dun need anything. hmm,,m really suprised tht whn I knw u bought a perfume 4me. I never think of it before.u knw wht,,,m also bought a perfume for u(2days ago)..soooooo coincidence. bt its nt d brand u want :( I dun hv enough budget to buy d chloe perfume recently sobs*** it's burberry perfume, da smell very delicate, soft & sweet..hope u'll like it.

50.... DAYS

This is the handmade coins purse..... exclusive for you...

28102010

babii，很抱歉

因为我的霸道，让你觉得痛苦

因为我的任性，让你不知所措



对不起



我知道你是最疼爱我的哪一个

就算我说了再难听，再伤的话

你还是一样忍着我

因为你知道我的性格，



对不起，



我希望你不要再说你不够疼我，爱我

因为你给我的一切，是我无法还给你的

是你给我快乐，给了我最特别的幸福

虽然我们偶偶尔会吵吵架

但是，每次都是你在让我

这些日子，真的是委屈你了

我每次都对你有过分要求



对不起



昨天是我让你生气了，是我让你着急了

对不起

不要怪我好吗？

我真的不是故意的

原谅我好吗？



不过，我很谢谢你在我遇到困难时陪我度过

我们在一起的日子，遇到了很多风风雨雨

也是你坚持陪我度过，要我不要害怕

因为万事都有你在

结果，所有的事都雨过天晴

你还是给我最多鼓励哪一个

有任何的困难都是你在鼓励我

要我学习坚持，可是我却办不到



对不起



不然我们今天订下个约定好吗？



那就是，我们不要再为了一点小事而吵架好吗？

我们互相体谅好吗？

我真的不希望再为了一点的小事而搞到我们不开心

搞到大家都不知谁对谁错

我更不希望因为一点小事而把我们之间的关系搞得不好

我更希望你不要离开我



因为...

我真的很需要你



因为...

我真的太依赖你了



因为...

我真的不能失去你



因为...

你对我真的很重要

03102010 life...

m here again,,sometimes lazy to write down d feelings,,thatz y,, today miss u so damn much bt u seems busy, I hpe can skype with u bt m scare I will fall in slp in front of u cuz m a bit tired,, today suppose to b a good day 4 us cuz today is public hol n we x need to work, bt I spend ma time by watching those stupid movies,, THE REVENGE OF THE KONG COBRA really sucks,,so bored thn wht I expected,,then THE OMEN,,I watched it ages ago de,, I really hate sunday cuz da 2nd day si monday, da main reason I hate monday is I knw its gonna b a super duper busy+scariest day!! cicak super duper moody on every monday xD

hmm,,,80 days to go,,time past soooo...slow, nw baru beginning of October,,still got November,,December,,arghhh, cant wait to b with u hug u tightlyyy n pinch ur cheek hehe..bully u neh!! :))) my course will start on next sunday so nervous ler,,bt m happy cuz I knw I can meet up v u whn ma course end,tht would b my greatest x'mas present ^^

waiting for you......

I DON'T

I don't want to argue or fight anymore. I love u too much! You mean da world to me. It will tk both of us to do this. I promise to put ma part if u do. You have ma heart & soul already. I know we can do this....Love u always,,,61kg Steph

dedicated to YOU

我以为你还在

钢琴上的键 弹不出明天 一双手要怎样 要怎样才能够撑住一片天

明天已经很遥远 一个人要怎样 要怎样伪装自己勇敢向前

我以为你还在 我还等着你回来 一起看海拥抱海的澎湃

数到三还不来 回忆不释怀 我在等待

可是你怎么都不会回来

键 弹不出明天 一双手要怎样 要怎样才能够撑住一片天

明天已经很遥远 一个人要怎样 要怎样伪装自己勇敢向前

我以为你还在 想念的雾散不开 一场意外谁把我救出来

数到三还不来 期待已变坏 留下只是寂寞里那种无声黑白

我以为你还在 我还等着你回来 一起看海拥抱海的澎湃

数到三还不来 回忆不释怀 我在等待

可是你永远都不会回来

我以为你还在

在不在 你还在不在 不再回来

泪水淋湿了无奈 我还在空无等待

我以为你还在 我还等着你回来 一起看海拥抱海的澎湃

数到三还不来 回忆不释怀 我在等待

可是你永远都不会回来

Jaron And The Long Road To Love - Pray For You (2009 Video & Lyrics)

Jaron And The Long Road To Love - Pray For You (2009 Video & Lyrics)

havent been to church since I don’t remember when
Things were goin’ great ‘til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know whereever you are honey, I pray for you

I’m really glad I found my way to church
‘Cause I’m already feelin’ better and I thank God for the words
Yeah I’m goin’ take the high road
And do what the preacher told me to do
You keep messin’ up and I’ll keep prayin’ for you

I pray your tire blows out at 110
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know whereever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car,
wherever you are honey, I pray for you.
I pray for you

27082010

Sorry to mk u worry, bt I hope u understand ma situation, I cant b unresponsible,, :> I hv to arrange da works, to avoid problem,,, m so tired bt I dun want slp 1st, I wanna hear ur voice b4 sleep,heee,,,^^ hmm,,,,still hungry althought I ate maggi n a pack of waffle ( vanilla choc flavour,,,yumzzz ^^ ) n I drank 1 cane soya bean milk ( eekkkk,,, ) nw feeling want to vomit >,<>

YOU make me...

all done!!! ^^ ma mum switch off ma laptop, all da documents I typed has
disappear..T^T thatz y I re-type it,,tk me an hour to do it =)

dun worry I will sleep after this cuztomorrow I hv
to wk up early! urghhh!!

wish tomorrow is weekend =I y time past so slow???? ( 118 days left )

hmm,,,m listening to - hen ai - by Cyndy Wang,, the song really sad,

u mk me smile all da time bt u mk me cry recently,,,

I wish,,,

• I'm really heartache whn u told me tht u sick
  dy,I wish I can b by ur side, I want to tk care of u,I wish I can cook
  porridge
  4u,bt I cant make it, so sad,,,I wish I ca do something 4u, at
  least talk with
  u,bt m failed to do tht cuz I always fall asleep,its nt
  because our topics so
  bored,is my problem,I admit sometimes I x
  concentrate,n at da same time I feel
  lazy n sleep..:(
  
  I think I
  should tk some energy supplement, so tht I
  will feel energetic all da
  time
  :) hmm,,,later watch horror movie ( mummy say
  today is chinese
  ghost day,
  she x allow me watch such kind movie, some more ask
  me
  sleep
  early )bt I dun
  want cuz I want stay awake and wk u up ard
  1130pm
  to tk
  medicine n mk sure
  u're ok :) today ain't a good
  day 4
  us, bt I
  believe
  tomorrow
  will be
  better!!! GOOD
  LUCK
  for 2 of
  us :>
  praying for
  u,,hope u recover
  soon,te
  extrano
  <3

Never thought I'll sacrifice so much just for YOU---love

Please appreciate it,,,

YOU are the one I need,,,

I don't mind waiting because I found my happiness,,,

Fated to love you,,,

YOU are my happiness

Taj Jackson - I Think Of You

I need YOU

We are facing a lot troubles recently, I hate those fxcking irriating problems. Do u knw wht actually happening nw????? m loyal to u, I din flirt. I'll keep ma promise so no worries, k? But u seems x trust me, m wondering is it wht I did previously mk u think tht way? I make mistakes, I lied u, bt already passed, y u still kept da unhappy things in ur mind? y u cant 4gt it slowly? is it time cant heal ur pain??? wht do u want?? force me till I surrender? U knw I wont, n I dont want! plsss,,,,,dont treat me this way, dun dump me cuz of this reason,,, T^T

I need u,,,

07.07 U & ME

urghh!!!! It's an another insomnia night,,,fuhh, da ''titanium'' effect mk me become like this,hmm,, so miss u babii, hope to hear ur voice nw, hope u can acc me chat, bt I knw u vry tired. some more tomorrow had to work. pity babe,,, T^T

m watching ''haunted university'' bt I cant b concentrate, hmm,dunno y, maybe the story kinda bored,,hmm,,,thinking wht else I can do,,, >,< boo sleep dy, poy sleep dy, ma mum pun sleep dy, haizz,, forcing maself to slp now!!! 1,2,3,,,sleep sleep sleep zzZZ ( so nonsense )

Babii Babii Babii,,,miss u so damn much eh!!!!! 07.07 Happy Valentine, be my ONE & ONLY

I never gave up on u...

Babii, dont ever think tht I dont love u anymore..dont ever think otha ppl will replace u in my heart. no 1 can beat u down de.ahaha.u knw de kan, ma heart for u would b da same, now & forever.I'll be ur everything if u will b ma anything.I wish u knw how I really feel about u.bt sometimes I sense that u dun put ur 100% on me pun..so sad :( Just because I always angry of u doesn't mean tht I didn't have feelings for u.Babii...I never wanted you to leave me & move on. I DONT WANT !!!!!!!!!!!! I always wanted to b with u.I was so crazy about you.heeee..I started doing crazy things like cut maself whn m moody ( I gt 1 scar..okok dun gt mad,I knw its childish bt I wish u knew I still want u through this way.. )

I think about u evry day. No matter what u say ( sometimes its hurtful tuu... )I won't stop loving & caring about you. I was so comfortable while talking to u & telling u everything tht was on my mind. Even though we didn't see each other..sobs T^T I hope m always somewhere in ur mind..OK.

p/s : da ques u asked me b4,,da answer : da day I finally started 2 love u was da day u finally stopped chasing me.wakakakaka...LOL

our 1st anniversary...

Babii Steph,

11/06/2010...m so happy cuz it's our 1st anniversary!!! It's a time to look back at da good times & a time to look ahead to achieve our * goal * together =) m pretty sure we can achieve our dreams lately if we put moreee effort. our love has grown stronger than ever with all tht we hv been through in this year. There's sooO many things hv happened tht hv brough us closer to each other. U hv taught me sooO much in tis year abt maself n abt da real love...I hv nvr felt so much joy in ma life as I feel when m in love with u...I love da joys tht u bring to ma life everyday, I love u sooO deeply...well, u might not believe it bt thtz da fact! I love u...as I hv frm da start & I'll love u forever with all ma heart...

Babii, m really felt sorry abt yesterday, I knw I hurt ur feelings even u were innocent =( m realized ma mistakes. I hate what I've said =( I promised u will never let u down again bt I did it once again. Please forgive me...sobs* last night I hugged ma pillow & dreamed of u. It makes me teary whn m think abt it...I cant imagine living ma life with u.. U r ma source of inspiration =) &....m da reason u gt up for work everyday..kan? ^^ bii...I knw u tired & stress at work..m heartache to c u like this, I dunno wht should I do to help u release da stress, hmm..maybe as u said b4?? be ur listener? Wat ca I do except tht?

Another thing I want to tell u is pls dun talk abt da cancer...hw would u feel if m da one who had cancer & I force u to leave me alone? Think abt that...
I've mentioned it numerous of times tht I LOVE YOU...I love u with all ma heart & soul, I want to b v u forever ( wheter in sickness or in health ) until death do us part. I knw it sounds ridiculous bt m saying da truth! I would do anything 4u cuz u're da most important factor in ma life..I will not stop loving u even...IF it destroy me...I dont care cuz u're da one I looking for & I wont regret this choice.

I will not love u for da rest of ur life bt for da rest of ma life... =) Te Amo....

I realized...

I love u soO much...bt sometimes I treat u coldly..hmm,I only acted in tht way because of ma insecurities =( this is ma weakness..haizz,,bii...u made me realize hw important u were in ma life & how much u r a part of me now. m really scared of losing u even u've promised me u won't...babii,I'll change ma attitude ...I'll make all OUR dreams come true,da most important is I WILL LOVE YOU TILL THE END...

I LOVE YOU...simple as that...

I love u so much and for sooO many reasons...I love u because there is no1 else like u in da world make me smile, make me laugh, make me happy... make me feel stupid ( in fact m dumb ) can't imagine ma life without u... :( I will always love u without any condition,because...u deserve it.Even tho we r thousands of miles apart,I hold u close to ma heart & will never let anyone take tht from me!!! I will try ma best to b good to u.I'll try ma best to do what's da right.Hmm...sometimes we argue,I don't know y?? maybe bcuz of ma bad temper...Then I lay down & wonder,y do I cry???.........I knw..I knw da reason...I cry because I love u,I cry because I care,sometimes I've wondered do u love me too???? then I look in ur eyes when we on skype & I know it's true.so when I say something a lil crazy or I do something u don't feel is right,plsss babii... let's try to work it out so we won't fight..ok? I just want u to know tht I will always let ma love for u even when we r really mad v each otha,I'll say those 3 words to make it right...

I LOVE YOU


I love you, say we're together baby, you and me

I can only give my life and show you all I am
in the breath I breathe
I will promise you my heart
and give you all you need if it takes some time
and if you tell me you don't need me anymore
that our love won't last forever
I will ask you for a chance to try again
to make our love a little better,
ooh...

I love you, say we're together baby,
say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me

You say you hardly know exactly who I am
so hard to understand
But I knew right from the start, the way I felt inside,
if you read my mind
and if you tell you don't need me anymore
that our love won't last forever, no
I will ask you for a chance to try again
to make our love a little better

I love you, say we're together baby,
say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me

Remember when you used to hold me,
remember when you made me cry
You said you loved me, oh, you did, yes you did

I love you, say we're together, baby, say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever, baby, you and me

会呼吸的痛...170510

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰你回来那就好了

想你的心情160510

• 
  
  真的有好长的一段时间没写blog了...今天突然有股莫名的心情想写，太想念你了吧？总觉得我们之间好像少了什么似的，你说不喜欢我说separate...可是实际上我们是分开两地啊？为什么两个喜欢彼此的人要爱得那么委屈喔...我答应你的agreement一直没写出来,今天是expire date.再写不出肯定让你很失望，所以今天我无论如何都得完成！Y^^Y 暂时是以下这几个条例，待会再用心想还有没有其它的^^然后translate去ENG. (突然收到你的FB msg,真的很开心:)你怎么知道我在想你啊？呵呵^^
  
  1) 每个月学一道新菜，绝对要做的让你吃完了还想吃。
  2) 起努力工作存钱，并且拥有一个温馨的家。
  3）有心事的时候你问起一定回答，如果不想说也不能把情绪带给你。
  4）你哭的时候安慰你，不烦，不发脾气,并尽量不让你的眼里有眼泪。
  5) 时常拍大头贴，贴满可以贴的地方．在房间里也要摆满两个人的照片。
  6) 夜里醒来的时候把你搂在胳膊里，亲亲你，接着睡。
  7）认真听你说话。
  8）调养你的身体，规划你的生活起居习惯，叫你活得越来越健康。
  9）如果有意外发生，承担对方的所有，替对方完成所有的心愿。
  
  还有很多很多~嘿嘿^^不过都是positive的！不会野蛮的啦~ 噢~是时候煮pasta了！chessy tuna+tomato.得练好我的厨艺！酱就可以煮好多好多的东东给我芭比-"你"吃了！=) yum yumzZ
  
  

040510

040510,挥不去的伤痛---是我高攀不上你...

我想谈一场永不分手的恋爱

我想谈一场永不分手的恋爱♥
就算吵架
就算生气
就算分开
也会再在一起


我想谈一场永不分手的恋爱♥
就算我们很忙
就算我们很累
只要见到彼此就会温馨一笑


我想谈一场永不分手的恋爱♥
在那场恋爱里
只有彼此
没有背叛
没有分离
没有心痛


我想谈一场永不分手的恋爱♥
那场恋爱
我们都会长大
都会懂事
都会成熟
但也会在只有彼此的时候幼稚一下下


我想谈一场永不分手的恋爱♥
那场恋爱里
我们懂得彼此
熟悉彼此
习惯彼此
依赖彼此


我想谈一场永不分手的恋爱♥
我们会一直牵着彼此的手
陪着对方渡过每一天
快乐、忧伤
首先会想到对方
彼此的感情不会随着时间的逝世而随波逐流


我想谈一场永不分手的恋爱♥
我们会一直走下去。
蹒跚漫步
夕阳西下
白头到老
相濡以沫
然后轻抚着你的脸庞、轻声说句
“对你的感觉一直都在”♥

Don't ever say goodbye...please...

There's a special person thats on ma mind,I want her to only be mine.She is someone I want to spend da rest of ma life,I swear I love her so much...nobody would replace her.I promise to love her until da day I die.I don't ever want her to leave me and I will never leave her,because I know I'll cry...sobs*

Please don't ever say goodbye. I will stay with u forever and ever.I can't imagine what life would b like if we weren't together.Don't ever leave ma life cause I want u to stay in ma heart forever.Please don't ever break ma heart and I won't break yours!!! These words can't explain how much I really love u, but da feelings in ma heart will never disappear...I hope that I made ma point clear :) that u're da special person thats on ma mind and I want to tell u at least 1 more time...that I will always love u forever and ever,so...don't ever say goodbye.

do YOU really want to hurt me?

YOU promised you wouldn’t hurt me
So tell me why I sit here crying?

letter S

I want get a tattoo!!! I really dont care what people think of me o da tattoo I have. If thy love me thy wont care :) well...I dont want it to b vry big.no more than 1.5 inches.nah! I want a tattoo that says I love you no matter how hard life gets :)hmm...how abt tattoo with ur name on it?? u & me have been together 10months++ and m sure we r going to b together for da rest of our lives.U more than a gf for me.u're ma love,ma everything..u,gave me a reason to live.I just want a creative way to put ur name.Steph....S!!! I really love this alphabet n I really want it on da back of ma neck/below ma hairline... I'd b more than happy to tell ppl y I hv it n whats da meaning behind it...

感动

“我们是注定在一起的，有你在身边就够了，我会每天都守护着你，不会再离开你了。你就是我的生命，我的老婆，现在我会与你一起直到最后，我爱你。”

当我收到你这封信息时，心里真的很暖。。。
因为我感受到你对我的爱，我。。。对你来说有多重要。
真的很感动。。。
我想我再也不会选择离开,无论身旁的你在或者不在。。。

I LOVE YOU

When m not there & u feel alone
just close both eyes & think of me
because I do that every night before I sleep :)
I’ve never been more honest in ma life
to say with all ma heart... I LOVE YOU

心情写真12042010

今天心情起伏蛮大的，答应你no more crying,所以就...顶顶顶顶....
下午被cicak狠狠痛骂一顿，真的不是我的错，数量等他都看了，都知道了。
跟他解释了，只想让他了解，还一个个写在纸上，他就是不看就是不听。
还说了一堆难听的话。真的是我表达能力差吧？
RM 5.80 x 1260 pcs = RM 7,308.00 这数学程式很简单吧？
RM 10,315.70 都可以算成 RM 4+++ . 你计算机坏了吗？还是手抽筋？
有时真的做到很委屈...明明不是我的错，却全部推在我身上，要我去扛。
一个两个都是这样，我可以忍...我忍...眼泪...忍住了，人却沉默了。
生活就是这样吧？无奈...

昨天真的很想很想你...
半夜睡不着第一个想到的就是你.因为我知道你会陪我，我只想听你的声音，因为这样会让我感觉到你的存在，你...其实离我很近。想多了，就有种想哭的感觉:( 你说你不会离开我，我...相信你。你不会！因为我们都深爱着对方。我要的不是你的承诺不是你的礼物，我要的只是你的好。
不要认为我没有规划，我只是不想去想以后没有你的日子。
因为我已习惯，习惯你的存在。这感觉很实在。
我知道如果我闭着眼睛过马路，你一定把我拉回，因为...你在乎我。
你会尽你所能保护我，所以我相信你。
我可以很肯定，我对你的爱一定会延续下去，直到我停止呼吸...

这些...你都做到了

<3 朦醒来回我信息。
　　<3 半夜里接我的电话。
　　<3 告诉我—到家了就发消息给你。
　　<3 我半夜睡不着发消息给你,你会陪我聊天。
　　<3 睡得比我迟一点，醒来早一点。
　　<3 愿意吃我吃不下的东西。
　　<3 善解人意。
　　<3 温柔细心。
　　<3 不乱花钱，但肯为我花钱。
　　<3 记得我说过的所有事。
　　<3 常常发消息告诉我。突然很想我。
　　<3 告诉所有人。我是你的芭比。
　　<3 常常给我留言。
　　<3 会写情书给我。
　　<3 我不舒服时，你会很担心很着急。
　　<3 吵架时不会一走了之。
　　<3 错了会认错，我错了不会怪我。
　　<3 吵架后，会无条件地哄我，放下面子。
　　<3 从不忍心责备我，无条件包容我。
　　<3 会一直保护我，害怕我受一点点委屈。
　　<3 我说笑话你会笑，会觉得我很可爱。
　　<3 会一个人安静地思考，但决不冷漠。
　　<3 许多方面都很厉害。
　　<3 会一直夸我，给我鼓励。
　　<3 不对我隐瞒什么。
　　<3 不花言巧语。
　　<3 认识每一天都可以回忆。
　　<3 不会因为玩游戏而忽略我。
　 <3 重大的事情和我商量。　
　　<3 喜欢我，从未犹豫，不拿我和别的女生比较。
　　<3 从未想过离开我的世界。
　　<3 我买给你的东西你都会喜欢。
　　<3 认识我的一些好朋友，拜托她们照顾我。
　　<3 了解我的烦恼与困惑，不厌其烦地倾听。
　　<3 很少让我哭，我哭的时候你会很心疼。
　　<3 认真告诉我，会娶我，并这么努力着。
　　<3 恋爱时感性，过日子理性。
　　<3 不重色轻友，也不重友轻色。
　　<3 计划的未来里，我是你重要的一部分。

我爱你

昨晚和你吵架（算是吵架吧）差点就要分那种很伤心。

很懊恼，很失落 我真的不想就这样失去你。

我们好不容易在一起我不想就这样分开，

因为我只我心里有你我还爱着你

痛了，哭了，才知道我对你的爱有多深

也许是因为我们一路走来，

你对我的爱已让我感动我投入这段感情，

把心交给你。

我爱你。。。

如果可以，我想和你一直走下去...

我不想跟你吵

我不是情绪化

我只不过害怕

害怕你离开我

虽然你已答应

你会永远爱我

原谅我的任性

希望你包容我

我也会体谅你

不想你不开心

不想你讨厌我

很多个我不想

但我知我最想

能和你走下去

我们的爱不灭

因为我一定会

坚持守护这段

得来不易的爱

永远和你一起

蔣佩珊我想你

10 months anniversary

Happy 10 months anniversary babe Steph :)
9 months & 4 weeks means 10 month already !!!
I know there will still a lot months we have to go through,
but m not afraid cause I knw u will always b by ma side
U do change me a lot
I'll keep ma promise...
m gonna b with u for da rest of ma life
I will try ma best to b a good gf for u :)

extremely bored !!!

m damn sooO bored atm..what else can I do?? Eekk,I always wanted to do like a video blog on youtube but m shy & I don’t want someone I know to spot me on the internet. LOL

ma love expressions

It is vry important for me to express to u how much u really mean to me...

I know it is difficult for u, as it is for me, to be separated for sooO long :( But our love will keep us near to each other. I believe 1 Day those miles won't be there, because I'll be in ur stupid arms forever.well,I just love you because I do.I love da way u laugh.even...a bit like sohai.lolz...n I love da way u smile.honestly ur dimples really attractive..m sooO envy of ur dimples XD I even love it when you make me mad n don't know why?? I love how when u upset me, u try so hard to make it better.

Steph,m so in love with u & wishing that I was with you...now

失落的290310

• 你好久没打电话给我了，一时之间不适应。所以当你打给我的那一刻，我真的很震惊，然后脸上不由自主展现微笑。那感觉真的很奇妙...刚才听到那熟悉的ringtone,就知道是你打来了...我在妈妈房间帮她检查文件，所以没接你电话。

• 其实...刚才你那番话真的让我感到很心痛，我和你不再有未来了吗？为什么说出那么伤人的话？真真假假难道你还看不出吗？我对你怎样，难道你感受不到吗？很久以前是真的有放弃的念头，可是那是好久以前的事，现在的我已学会珍惜。为什么你就是对我心存怀疑？为什么不选择相信我？

• 有时我在想，到底该怎么做才能让你更肯定我对你的爱？我已经在努力学习了...我们好不容易才走在一起，为什么要轻易说放弃？你说你不想再想我们的以后，因为那对你来说可能实现不了。可是我依然相信，我相信会有那么一天...

• 我答应你的事没做到是我的错，我不该乱花钱，这点我知道，我不是在为自己找借口，只是最近心情起伏不定，买东西舒缓我的情绪，也成了我的乐趣。我有...预算的。我们说过一起存钱来达到我们的梦想之家。我只想让你知道，我没忘记我们的约定...

• 就算心偶尔被你狠狠刮几刀，我...依然爱你，这是不变的事实...

I'm madly in love with you...

I consider maself to b quite mature & I really want to spend da rest of my life wih u.I've never loved anyone like this...nt even close n it's killing me slowly every day...

sigh* I went to bed around 11pm n woke up at 1130pm n its 340am m wide awake n cant go bck to sleep althought m really tired, I knw da reason...I can't sleep because ma mind keep thinking about her...

心情写真270310

今晚突然有股想写...Blog的心情
一面听歌一面将心里的点点滴滴透过文字表达。
听着听着突然一阵心酸。想起了她，想起我们的目标，梦想...
真的会...实现么？我不停地说服自己一定会。
因为从以前到现在，只要是我认为“会”的事物，一定会实现。只是时间方面...可能稍微久了些。
她...刚刚用妹妹手机打来，看着手机屏幕，呆呆地...该...接吗？
为什么会有种...心痛...的感觉？
有时真的想过要放弃，但是我不甘心...
不是我狠，只是当我知道她的委屈后我真的很伤心。
是我...她才会有这样的抉择吗？我不想有天她会怨我，我不想她后悔。
我想...如果我是她,真的没有这股勇气,放弃学业，还得面对家人，亲戚各方面带来的压力。
换成是我，真的会承受不了。
她的压力，多半是因为我，如果当初我不和她搞暧昧就不会有今天的地步。
我不是后悔，只是觉得人生嘛...就很无常。从来没想过会和她发展到今天这个地步
认识她都快一年了，时间悄悄溜走...
为了能让她更加安心，我生活作息方面都尽量配合她，有时真的很累，可是不想让她知道。
因为我知道，她是个很容易就会胡思乱想的人，把她惹恼了还得花心机哄她。虽然不是很艰难，但有时真的蛮累
我真的好想好好和她走下去，单纯地想跟她在一起。
她编织了许多“梦想”，听起来真的很美好，可是却那么...遥不可及...
我宁可沉醉在所谓的“梦”，因为现实往往真的很可怕...

still...

the love still there and I'm still waiting....