gone

there's nothing much I want to say..I'm just....too emo..sometimes. I cant sleep for whole night long, the feeling is killing me softly, damn it, I just feeling want to text msg u but I have to force myself not to do so...am I cruel? yes..

Life is unpredicted, I never expected our rs will turn to this way, it's all my fault but if I think clearly u cannot put all the blame on me?! I've tried to fix it back but I couldnt make it. I'm not begging your forgivess o what. I just hope someday we can......

I keep repeating the song ( hen ai ) over n over..I just want to clear down my mind, I dont know y..I lost myself. it's really funny, I can turn to b like a...even I also dont know who am I. I used to be like this but.. I'm really confused and all I can do is lying on bed and tearing.. what happen to me actually? why I'm still cant forget it? Why this time so damn hard to put down????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Y I'm so weak..

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you,.,.I miss the way u hugged me,, u kissed me, u pampered me,,I knw cant be turn back already...I cant I dont want hurt u actually, If I were u,, the painful words definitely will make me fed up..but I'm not, I dont know what u were thinking right now? I'm not fooling you. I just dont want lie myself.......

Our dream has destroyed caused of me...I'm so cold blooded...I'm so useless, y i cant just stay foe few months and wait till you comne back. I believe everything would b ok..but now.. all has gone...