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你为了我，

放弃了所有快乐的权利。

但是，

我却不懂得该去怎么珍惜。



你为了我，

每天以泪洗脸，

我只能低着头，

在心里默默的对你说对不起。



是我不好，

每一天都要你为了我做东做西的。

但是我一句谢谢也没有跟你说。

是我的错，

为了朋友而抛弃了你。



是的，我爱你。

但是我却想着要逃避。

我不是要离开你，

只是我痛恨自己对你的态度。



我不知道该怎么去做。

我是个自私鬼，

不但要霸占你的爱。

更想保护自己。



其实你对我很好，

只是我不值得你为了我做的那么多。

我很怕，明天以后天空不会再是明亮的了。

我很怕，你就会离开我。

我很怕，你会厌倦了这一切。

我很怕，你不会再像个守护天使一样守护我。



亲爱的，

我很爱你，

只是我不敢走向前。

我知道，你就在我身旁。

但是，我无法给予你快乐。



每次看见你失落的眼神，

每次看见你想哭的眼泪。

我的心就会为了你疼痛...

你...我

你为了我，放弃了所有快乐的权利。但是，我却不懂得该去怎么珍惜。你为了我，每天以泪洗脸，我只能低着头，在心里默默的对你说对不起。是我不好，每一天都要你为了我做东做西的。但是我一句谢谢也没有跟你说。是我的错，为了她而抛弃了你。是的，我爱你。但是我却想着要逃避。我不是要离开你，只是我痛恨自己对你的态度。我不知道该怎么去做。我是个自私鬼，不但要霸占你的爱。更想保护自己。其实你对我很好，只是我不值得你为了我做的那么多。我很怕，明天以后天空不会再是明亮的了。我很怕，你就会离开我。我很怕，你会厌倦了这一切。我很怕，你不会再像个守护天使一样守护我，我很爱你，只是我不敢走向前。我知道，你就在我身旁。但是，我无法给予你快乐。每次看见你失落的眼神，每次看见你想哭的眼泪。我的心就会为了你疼痛

gone

there's nothing much I want to say..I'm just....too emo..sometimes. I cant sleep for whole night long, the feeling is killing me softly, damn it, I just feeling want to text msg u but I have to force myself not to do so...am I cruel? yes..

Life is unpredicted, I never expected our rs will turn to this way, it's all my fault but if I think clearly u cannot put all the blame on me?! I've tried to fix it back but I couldnt make it. I'm not begging your forgivess o what. I just hope someday we can......

I keep repeating the song ( hen ai ) over n over..I just want to clear down my mind, I dont know y..I lost myself. it's really funny, I can turn to b like a...even I also dont know who am I. I used to be like this but.. I'm really confused and all I can do is lying on bed and tearing.. what happen to me actually? why I'm still cant forget it? Why this time so damn hard to put down????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Y I'm so weak..

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you,.,.I miss the way u hugged me,, u kissed me, u pampered me,,I knw cant be turn back already...I cant I dont want hurt u actually, If I were u,, the painful words definitely will make me fed up..but I'm not, I dont know what u were thinking right now? I'm not fooling you. I just dont want lie myself.......

Our dream has destroyed caused of me...I'm so cold blooded...I'm so useless, y i cant just stay foe few months and wait till you comne back. I believe everything would b ok..but now.. all has gone...

08032011

xxxxxxxxxxxxx I'm back!!!!!!!!!!!! it's been a longgg time din update ma blog. haixx,,,this few days really tired, eventhought everyday I sleep early, but still feel ain't enough. I wish I can sleep till 10am..bt sigh I hv to work :( suddenly miss ur smell so much.. :DDD miss d time we hug together n slp together, can't wait to c u again, sure will gv u a BIG hug^^ hmm,,did u notice that I x argue with u dy? everytime u scold me I will just keep quiet, if really beh tahan thn turn off my phone, so u can't contact me, thn tk d time to calm down urself. I hope u'll understand. I hope u'll understand my feeling, dun keep saying those hurtful words... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

the fact.....

I doesnt mean that I don't believe you, but sometimes my confidence will be shaken. Maybe you still cannot fully give me confidence to it.hmm,,,I was learning trust, forgiveness. So I try not to rely on you, do not bother you. Because I do not want you to feel disgust. Because I know my recent behavior is too over. You need more space. You need privacy. I'm sorry. . . Do you remember today? I did not forget today. Promised to give you a surprise every ten days. I did. You probably do not like, but I hope that you will cherish :)

Last 30 days

Last 30 days. . . Wondering what to give your heart surprise. Do not want to make you feel very disappointed. I want you to have an unprecedented feeling. In fact, my head is full of different ideas. hehehehe

111110...THE 40DAYS

SUPRISEEEEEE~~~~ I knw u can't wait to see it ya!! hohoho ^0^ hmm,,okay, da 1st one is----tikus!!! muahaha. ( this tikus will replace Ah Boo ) guess what is da function? not just for decoration....deng deng deng!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its a money saving coins box =) I want u save up the money for ur own future.I dun want u waste the money to buy thing for me okay. I dun need anything. hmm,,m really suprised tht whn I knw u bought a perfume 4me. I never think of it before.u knw wht,,,m also bought a perfume for u(2days ago)..soooooo coincidence. bt its nt d brand u want :( I dun hv enough budget to buy d chloe perfume recently sobs*** it's burberry perfume, da smell very delicate, soft & sweet..hope u'll like it.