I never gave up on u...

Babii, dont ever think tht I dont love u anymore..dont ever think otha ppl will replace u in my heart. no 1 can beat u down de.ahaha.u knw de kan, ma heart for u would b da same, now & forever.I'll be ur everything if u will b ma anything.I wish u knw how I really feel about u.bt sometimes I sense that u dun put ur 100% on me pun..so sad :( Just because I always angry of u doesn't mean tht I didn't have feelings for u.Babii...I never wanted you to leave me & move on. I DONT WANT !!!!!!!!!!!! I always wanted to b with u.I was so crazy about you.heeee..I started doing crazy things like cut maself whn m moody ( I gt 1 scar..okok dun gt mad,I knw its childish bt I wish u knew I still want u through this way.. )

I think about u evry day. No matter what u say ( sometimes its hurtful tuu... )I won't stop loving & caring about you. I was so comfortable while talking to u & telling u everything tht was on my mind. Even though we didn't see each other..sobs T^T I hope m always somewhere in ur mind..OK.

p/s : da ques u asked me b4,,da answer : da day I finally started 2 love u was da day u finally stopped chasing me.wakakakaka...LOL

our 1st anniversary...

Babii Steph,

11/06/2010...m so happy cuz it's our 1st anniversary!!! It's a time to look back at da good times & a time to look ahead to achieve our * goal * together =) m pretty sure we can achieve our dreams lately if we put moreee effort. our love has grown stronger than ever with all tht we hv been through in this year. There's sooO many things hv happened tht hv brough us closer to each other. U hv taught me sooO much in tis year abt maself n abt da real love...I hv nvr felt so much joy in ma life as I feel when m in love with u...I love da joys tht u bring to ma life everyday, I love u sooO deeply...well, u might not believe it bt thtz da fact! I love u...as I hv frm da start & I'll love u forever with all ma heart...

Babii, m really felt sorry abt yesterday, I knw I hurt ur feelings even u were innocent =( m realized ma mistakes. I hate what I've said =( I promised u will never let u down again bt I did it once again. Please forgive me...sobs* last night I hugged ma pillow & dreamed of u. It makes me teary whn m think abt it...I cant imagine living ma life with u.. U r ma source of inspiration =) &....m da reason u gt up for work everyday..kan? ^^ bii...I knw u tired & stress at work..m heartache to c u like this, I dunno wht should I do to help u release da stress, hmm..maybe as u said b4?? be ur listener? Wat ca I do except tht?

Another thing I want to tell u is pls dun talk abt da cancer...hw would u feel if m da one who had cancer & I force u to leave me alone? Think abt that...
I've mentioned it numerous of times tht I LOVE YOU...I love u with all ma heart & soul, I want to b v u forever ( wheter in sickness or in health ) until death do us part. I knw it sounds ridiculous bt m saying da truth! I would do anything 4u cuz u're da most important factor in ma life..I will not stop loving u even...IF it destroy me...I dont care cuz u're da one I looking for & I wont regret this choice.

I will not love u for da rest of ur life bt for da rest of ma life... =) Te Amo....

I realized...

I love u soO much...bt sometimes I treat u coldly..hmm,I only acted in tht way because of ma insecurities =( this is ma weakness..haizz,,bii...u made me realize hw important u were in ma life & how much u r a part of me now. m really scared of losing u even u've promised me u won't...babii,I'll change ma attitude ...I'll make all OUR dreams come true,da most important is I WILL LOVE YOU TILL THE END...

I LOVE YOU...simple as that...

I love u so much and for sooO many reasons...I love u because there is no1 else like u in da world make me smile, make me laugh, make me happy... make me feel stupid ( in fact m dumb ) can't imagine ma life without u... :( I will always love u without any condition,because...u deserve it.Even tho we r thousands of miles apart,I hold u close to ma heart & will never let anyone take tht from me!!! I will try ma best to b good to u.I'll try ma best to do what's da right.Hmm...sometimes we argue,I don't know y?? maybe bcuz of ma bad temper...Then I lay down & wonder,y do I cry???.........I knw..I knw da reason...I cry because I love u,I cry because I care,sometimes I've wondered do u love me too???? then I look in ur eyes when we on skype & I know it's true.so when I say something a lil crazy or I do something u don't feel is right,plsss babii... let's try to work it out so we won't fight..ok? I just want u to know tht I will always let ma love for u even when we r really mad v each otha,I'll say those 3 words to make it right...

I LOVE YOU


I love you, say we're together baby, you and me

I can only give my life and show you all I am
in the breath I breathe
I will promise you my heart
and give you all you need if it takes some time
and if you tell me you don't need me anymore
that our love won't last forever
I will ask you for a chance to try again
to make our love a little better,
ooh...

I love you, say we're together baby,
say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me

You say you hardly know exactly who I am
so hard to understand
But I knew right from the start, the way I felt inside,
if you read my mind
and if you tell you don't need me anymore
that our love won't last forever, no
I will ask you for a chance to try again
to make our love a little better

I love you, say we're together baby,
say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me

Remember when you used to hold me,
remember when you made me cry
You said you loved me, oh, you did, yes you did

I love you, say we're together, baby, say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever, baby, you and me

会呼吸的痛...170510

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰你回来那就好了

想你的心情160510

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  真的有好长的一段时间没写blog了...今天突然有股莫名的心情想写，太想念你了吧？总觉得我们之间好像少了什么似的，你说不喜欢我说separate...可是实际上我们是分开两地啊？为什么两个喜欢彼此的人要爱得那么委屈喔...我答应你的agreement一直没写出来,今天是expire date.再写不出肯定让你很失望，所以今天我无论如何都得完成！Y^^Y 暂时是以下这几个条例，待会再用心想还有没有其它的^^然后translate去ENG. (突然收到你的FB msg,真的很开心:)你怎么知道我在想你啊？呵呵^^
  
  1) 每个月学一道新菜，绝对要做的让你吃完了还想吃。
  2) 起努力工作存钱，并且拥有一个温馨的家。
  3）有心事的时候你问起一定回答，如果不想说也不能把情绪带给你。
  4）你哭的时候安慰你，不烦，不发脾气,并尽量不让你的眼里有眼泪。
  5) 时常拍大头贴，贴满可以贴的地方．在房间里也要摆满两个人的照片。
  6) 夜里醒来的时候把你搂在胳膊里，亲亲你，接着睡。
  7）认真听你说话。
  8）调养你的身体，规划你的生活起居习惯，叫你活得越来越健康。
  9）如果有意外发生，承担对方的所有，替对方完成所有的心愿。
  
  还有很多很多~嘿嘿^^不过都是positive的！不会野蛮的啦~ 噢~是时候煮pasta了！chessy tuna+tomato.得练好我的厨艺！酱就可以煮好多好多的东东给我芭比-"你"吃了！=) yum yumzZ
  
  

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