gone

there's nothing much I want to say..I'm just....too emo..sometimes. I cant sleep for whole night long, the feeling is killing me softly, damn it, I just feeling want to text msg u but I have to force myself not to do so...am I cruel? yes..

Life is unpredicted, I never expected our rs will turn to this way, it's all my fault but if I think clearly u cannot put all the blame on me?! I've tried to fix it back but I couldnt make it. I'm not begging your forgivess o what. I just hope someday we can......

I keep repeating the song ( hen ai ) over n over..I just want to clear down my mind, I dont know y..I lost myself. it's really funny, I can turn to b like a...even I also dont know who am I. I used to be like this but.. I'm really confused and all I can do is lying on bed and tearing.. what happen to me actually? why I'm still cant forget it? Why this time so damn hard to put down????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Y I'm so weak..

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you,.,.I miss the way u hugged me,, u kissed me, u pampered me,,I knw cant be turn back already...I cant I dont want hurt u actually, If I were u,, the painful words definitely will make me fed up..but I'm not, I dont know what u were thinking right now? I'm not fooling you. I just dont want lie myself.......

Our dream has destroyed caused of me...I'm so cold blooded...I'm so useless, y i cant just stay foe few months and wait till you comne back. I believe everything would b ok..but now.. all has gone...

08032011

xxxxxxxxxxxxx I'm back!!!!!!!!!!!! it's been a longgg time din update ma blog. haixx,,,this few days really tired, eventhought everyday I sleep early, but still feel ain't enough. I wish I can sleep till 10am..bt sigh I hv to work :( suddenly miss ur smell so much.. :DDD miss d time we hug together n slp together, can't wait to c u again, sure will gv u a BIG hug^^ hmm,,did u notice that I x argue with u dy? everytime u scold me I will just keep quiet, if really beh tahan thn turn off my phone, so u can't contact me, thn tk d time to calm down urself. I hope u'll understand. I hope u'll understand my feeling, dun keep saying those hurtful words... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

the fact.....

I doesnt mean that I don't believe you, but sometimes my confidence will be shaken. Maybe you still cannot fully give me confidence to it.hmm,,,I was learning trust, forgiveness. So I try not to rely on you, do not bother you. Because I do not want you to feel disgust. Because I know my recent behavior is too over. You need more space. You need privacy. I'm sorry. . . Do you remember today? I did not forget today. Promised to give you a surprise every ten days. I did. You probably do not like, but I hope that you will cherish :)

Last 30 days

Last 30 days. . . Wondering what to give your heart surprise. Do not want to make you feel very disappointed. I want you to have an unprecedented feeling. In fact, my head is full of different ideas. hehehehe

111110...THE 40DAYS

SUPRISEEEEEE~~~~ I knw u can't wait to see it ya!! hohoho ^0^ hmm,,okay, da 1st one is----tikus!!! muahaha. ( this tikus will replace Ah Boo ) guess what is da function? not just for decoration....deng deng deng!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its a money saving coins box =) I want u save up the money for ur own future.I dun want u waste the money to buy thing for me okay. I dun need anything. hmm,,m really suprised tht whn I knw u bought a perfume 4me. I never think of it before.u knw wht,,,m also bought a perfume for u(2days ago)..soooooo coincidence. bt its nt d brand u want :( I dun hv enough budget to buy d chloe perfume recently sobs*** it's burberry perfume, da smell very delicate, soft & sweet..hope u'll like it.

50.... DAYS

This is the handmade coins purse..... exclusive for you...

28102010

babii，很抱歉

因为我的霸道，让你觉得痛苦

因为我的任性，让你不知所措



对不起



我知道你是最疼爱我的哪一个

就算我说了再难听，再伤的话

你还是一样忍着我

因为你知道我的性格，



对不起，



我希望你不要再说你不够疼我，爱我

因为你给我的一切，是我无法还给你的

是你给我快乐，给了我最特别的幸福

虽然我们偶偶尔会吵吵架

但是，每次都是你在让我

这些日子，真的是委屈你了

我每次都对你有过分要求



对不起



昨天是我让你生气了，是我让你着急了

对不起

不要怪我好吗？

我真的不是故意的

原谅我好吗？



不过，我很谢谢你在我遇到困难时陪我度过

我们在一起的日子，遇到了很多风风雨雨

也是你坚持陪我度过，要我不要害怕

因为万事都有你在

结果，所有的事都雨过天晴

你还是给我最多鼓励哪一个

有任何的困难都是你在鼓励我

要我学习坚持，可是我却办不到



对不起



不然我们今天订下个约定好吗？



那就是，我们不要再为了一点小事而吵架好吗？

我们互相体谅好吗？

我真的不希望再为了一点的小事而搞到我们不开心

搞到大家都不知谁对谁错

我更不希望因为一点小事而把我们之间的关系搞得不好

我更希望你不要离开我



因为...

我真的很需要你



因为...

我真的太依赖你了



因为...

我真的不能失去你



因为...

你对我真的很重要